Its been a long times since I updated again, I know. I just really can’t be bothered, its become a chore, and just be honest, I havent felt bothered to do much lately! And the list is a bit ruined as a consequence of crappy things happening, so some things are definately not getting complete! But I’ll try and get as close to 100 things as I possibly can!

29/03 - Lots of coffee for me today!!

30/03 - Editing Megan's Law essay...

31/03 - Lack of internet = Lots of card playing!

01/04 - A great big pile of books... Yippee! =/

02/04 - All ready to go!

So yeah, theres my week in pictures! Lack of sleep, lots of coffee, editing essays to shorten word length, lack of internet, lots of card playing, and all packed and ready to go for my mini non-break!

So I’ll leave it there for now! Its a start =)

Lots of love xxx

Okay, things haven’t been great lately, and I stopped a lot of things and left stuff half done… I’m trying to fix that…

So photos, updates, etc etc…

Taking chances when they come, regardless!

Lots of love xxx

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I was going to add a photo, however, my camera battery decided to die when I tried to upload it to my computer, so I’ll charge the battery tomorrow and get it up as soon as possible!

Stumbled upon this song today, and loved it!! So thought I’d share it with everyone!

Bed for me now, its late…

Lots of love xxx

I’m thinking of making a list of things to do, like a plan of action for my remaining days at home so I don’t waste so much time! Well, not waste time, more so I can do things that are more constructive! And maybe a few things on the list!!!

Google Chrome... Fantastic!

I just downloaded Google Chrome. My brother has had it for weeks and weeks, but I was happy with Explorer… But its ridiculously slow and kept messing up Facebook, so I thought it was time for a change! And Chrome, I love it! Faster and easier… So I’m happy!

Just watched an episode of Survivors, missed most of this series but oh well. Theres another program on now, but its too late to watch it and I can’t be bothered… I’ll catch up with it tomorrow!

Goodnight!
Lots of love xxx

Order has been restored, to the wardrobe at least!

It did mean that I had to finally empty my suitcase though, which has been packed since I cam back home at the beginning of December! I’m leaving in two weeks as well, hardly seemed worth it really! But there, wardrobe sorted, just the rest of the room to deal with now!

Sunday, last day of January, so I had to make sure I got all the monthly things done… That is, writing a letter to someone and a part to myself in ten years… Finally got that finished today, so thats one less thing to worry about! Not that theres much more worrying to do for January, its over!

January letters - DONE!

Problem is I can’t find my envelopes, or I didn’t bring them back with me or I might have put them somewhere… Or I simply can’t remember because its confusing having two rooms you live in! I think I may have to buy some more now anyway, they don’t appear to be anywhere here, but then I can’t tell for sure as its a tip still. May as well buy some more! The letters will have to reside in a box for now, so they can be kept safe and crease-free there!

And yesterday, being Monday, I decided to do a bit of sewing. My Mum got the sewing machine out to do a few jobs and whatever she was doing, sorting out jeans and dressing gowns. I thought I’d join in seeing as I’d found all my material over the past week. So I made a pair of shorts out of some pajamas I had… The trousers were too short anyway, well too short for my liking, so I cut them off! And I have a lovely pair of shorts now. The rest of the legs material can be used for my patchworking project I have on the list!!

A whole lot of ironing, pinning, unpicking and sewing later...

I’m pleased with them which is the good thing! Its the first sewing thing I’ve done without asking my mother  a million questions and asking her to help me! So my sewing ability is making process… I have other stuff to sew but not yet! I’ll go a bit at a time!

Lots of love xxx

P.S. Theres still too much snow up here for my liking! When will it go away?!?!

So today I’m not exactly the happiest… The snow came back without warning… And I really really really really really HATE snow! And my car is now stuck again! Typical… Oh well… So seeing as its a non-running day and its not as if I’d venture outside unless I really really had to… I decided that it was time to start tidying/decluttering my room! Heres the damage from earlier on… the beginning of it all:

The two massive piles of clothes ... so far!

I can guarantee it got worse… A lot worse! I had boxes out my wardrobe and more piles of clothes and just stuff everywhere! I have a pile of stuff I’m gettin rid of and taking to the charity shop and to be honest, the room does not look much tidier at the moment! Oh well, I’ll get the rest sorted tomorrow, although I do need to move all the clothes off my bed to somewhere if I plan on sleeping at all! But where to put them is the question!! I haven’t really sorted through my clothes yet, so I’m guessing that is next after the general mess is tidied! I like tidying and decluttering though, its therapeutic in a way… Just not a huge fan of all the dust that surfaces when you start moving boxes and things that haven’t been out in years! I can’t stop sneezing… unfair!

So the snow… What to say about the snow really… I mean it does look pretty I guess… The view from my window is awesome anyway (although sometimes I fail to think it, you get used to it seeing it everyday!)… Here it is:

What a lovely view eh?

But wait, thats only one half of it… Heres the other =P

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Which is all nice and pretty… until it soon turned into something more like this:

Hmmm...

Yeah… not so good… I couldn’t see a thing… My parents and brother were driving home from school in that! Thats what makes the snow not fun and annoying… And the fact that you clear sort of pathway so you can get into your house and then five minutes later theres an inch or two of snow on top! Plus the trekking up the hill to the car thing again… And the cold… Oh well! Don’t know how running is going to go tomorrow really… We’ll see, its snowing a bit outside now, so it will probably carry on all night… *sigh*

On a more positive note… I saw Mars tonight! Its the closest its been to Earth for a long time and the closest it will be for a long time too, if that makes sense… And it was pretty impressive… Apart from standing out in the cold, didn’t stop to gaze at it for long, but still pretty. Used the binoculars, although you could see it without! Could I call that witnessing a miracle??? Its not going to be like that ever again in my lifetime I suppose… Nah, I’ll find a proper miracle to witness or make!

Anyway, thats me off to move all this stuff and sleep…

Lots of love xxx

Friday 22nd January
No jogging today, and I’m slightly grateful for that. At some point I might be able to jog every single day of the week, but nowhere near that at the moment. Its going to take a while! Again it was probably a somewhat lazy and uneventful day! Some family friends came around to borrow the van for the weekend, and they stayed for a bit of a chat and cuppa tea and what not! Then it was off to school with my Mum to collect my brother from school, and a quick visit to the Post Office and the butchers while we were at it… Quick and easy dinner as my brother was at Kempo tonight, and as usual I tagged along to sit and wait in the car with Mum. So we chatted and that was about it… Home, watched Celebrity Big Brother and went up to bed…

Nothing like a bit of McDreamy before bed! =P

I completely forgot about Grey’s Anatomy, so just watched the latest episode… Can’t wait for the next one now! And Izzie came back!! Yay! Right sorry, that was a little sad. But yeah, watched that before I go to sleep! All in all, that was my day… Interesting, huh?

Saturday 23rd January
Had one of those “I really can’t be bothered to do anything at all” days today… I really couldn’t be bothered. Just wanted to stay in bed all day and do nothing! But it was a running day so I had to go out running regardless, made to do so by my father, who promised I would enjoy it… Didn’t so much but oh well, at least I went I suppose. Did mostly walking though, more walking than usual… I then got angry with myself because I couldn’t run for more than a minute without having to stop and catch my breath… It will get better I suppose. As long as I keep going and trying…

Film night... Dorian Gray <3

It was a film night tonight! Chosen film was Dorian Gray. I’ve wanted tos ee it ever since I first saw it advertised in the cinema, just never got around to going to see it. It was rather good though, I enjoyed it! Might read the book now, not that I seem to have time to read books nowadays with university reading. It was like school, they encourage you to read, but I really think they don’t actually want you to read… They give you too much to do that theres no extra time to do “personal” reading… Right, I’ll stop complaining about that there! But yeah, Dorian Gray can go on my list of books to read. It was an awesome film though, I do recommend it. I think I may be a tiny bit in love with Ben Barnes though. Hahaha =P Not that its the film to be falling in love with him, his character isn’t the most lovable in the world!
Just had a cup of tea, and bed after this I think… Might watch Grey’s again… Don’t know!

Sunday 24th January
Having a day off today, not that I actually do anything much any of the other days… But its a day off from running at least. Time to chill out and have a lie in. Chillaxing, really! Family friends were back around today to drop the van back off and again stayed for a bit, but only a short bit because they were on their way to the cinema to see Sherlock Holmes. Thats another film I’d love to see!

Being Human <3 and a general iPlayer night!

I’m having a general iPlayer, catch up night tonight! Got to watch the new episode of Being Human, then theres Big Bang Theory, QI, Mock the Week and the film Perfume is up too, so might give that a watch as well while I’m at it! Up early tomorrow morning…. Hmmmm =S

Monday 25th January
A week on the diet today, and I’m pleased I’ve lost weight… I really am! However, I still want chocolate… I really really really really want a bag of Peanut M&Ms, that would just make my day… But I can’t, not for a while yet… So thats that idea out the window! Guess I’ll just have to wait.
No running today! Shopping day instead! Yay! Although it wasn’t really a shopping day, just a visiting, look around a few shops and back sort of thing! I drove today though. I am seriously out of practice… Well I can still drive, just I think its back to stage 1 again with roundabouts… Haven’t been on big roundabouts for such a long time… I’ll have to get practicing and used to them again… I’d only just got the hang of them and then I went to university… And haven’t really been near a decent sized roundabout for about 3 months! I’ll get the hang of them again soon, and stop freaking out so much… and talking to myself… Thats the weirdest part! Theres seriously a disadvantage of learning to drive in the middle of nowhere! But oh well!

New charm attached! Got two now!!

Picked up my charm bracelet today! It was nice to have it back, feels weird not wearing it after wearing it for so long! Two weeks was a long wait! But the new charm is attached now and I’m happy so all is good! Total of two charms now! Yippee! Slowly getting there! Must admit though, as weird as it was not to wear it, its annoying me a bit now I’ve got it back on… Will just have to get used to it again! Just looked around a few shops after that, nosied in the charity shops but that was about it. Got a new phone as I was fed up of trying to put up with my practically dead old one! It was becoming such a hassle to try and get it to charge, and to wait for it to load and what not… It had become useless and its been lying on my chest of drawers for nearly two weeks now… Dead, uncharged and a waste of space! New phone! And its cool and it works! Good day today =)

Tuesday 26th January
Running today, was a little easier this time. Ran more of the way there today… Still walking all the way back, there is no way I am running up them hills as yet!
I was going to have a decluttering, cleaning day today… But then I got reminded about running… So none of that really happened today. I manged to make a small pile of washing and that was it! I’ll have to do it on Friday, or the weekend or something! It will have to get done soonish!!! Just obviously, its not happening today! I just have so much rubbish and junk that I’m keeping, or thats just collected and things… It needs to get sorted out!

Photo representation of Rugby Training

Clearly it isn’t a photo of the actual rugby training. I did try to take one through the clubhouse windows, even without the flash on… It failed… So I got the Rugby captain whatever board! Seems good enough! Went to Rugby training tonight with Mum to take my brother. We just waited in the clubhouse as it was warmer and watched the training! Well, my mother read her magazine… Not much happened though… And thats about it…
I will have to clear my bed or else I won’t be able to get into it… I hate decluttering, everything seems to get messy before anything begins to get tidier! Off to bed soon I think, might watch an episode of Grey’s before bed though… I was thinking the beginning of Season 2! Haven’t watched the old ones for such a long time!

Wednesday 27th January
Got up and fixed my car radio this morning. Needed a code to work again since the battery had been taken out… And I read the sound system manual and it told me about this code… which should be on a car blah blah blah… And I was searching through all my car stuff to try and find this card and I couldn’t find it. I thought that the previous owners must still have it which would be so typical because I didn’t really fancy sitting there typing in the one billion different combinations there could have possible been. But I did find it tucked away and hidden eventually! Which was a relief really. Glad I got that sorted! I can listen to the radio again!

Finally working... its a tape one, old I know!

I wasn’t too pleased about the fact that my tape thing to plug in my iPod doesn’t work… It doesn’t register that theres a tape in it, which is slightly annoying… I’ll need a new plan for that but nevermind!
Mum and Dad were out today and wouldn’t be back quite in time to collect my brother from school afte boxing club so I was asked to go instead. Thought I’d make half a day of it, or an hour or so! So planned to meet Bells after school and hang out and chat until my brother was ready from boxing club.  And I straightened my hair so she could see the colour properly and things, she hadn’t seen it until today! I also wore earrings for her benefit as she was telling my to wear more earrings and to put that on the list. However, she never noticed… It was probably because of the new hair! But yeah, had a catch up with her and everyone else I happened to bump into. Had a scary conversation about 2012 and the end of the world… Bells was a bit concerned about how scary and in depth Robert and me were talking about it, but oh well… I’m not going to start worrying until the beginning of 2012… and then really start worrying by September 2012… I was worried about the Large Hadron Collider thing… I thought that could possibly be the end of the world… Not that I think that 2012 means everyones going to die and what not, but it is on the Mayan calendar and they have been right about so many other things, so something might happen, something not good. Guess we’ll find out! Anyway, sorry about that little diversion, it was nice to see and catch up with some people again! =)
Going to watch a bit of Desperate Housewives before sleep tonight, I missed it on tv, so I’ll have to catch up!

Thursday 28th January
Got out of bed feeling rubbish this morning. Didn’t have a great nights sleep last night really. Had a headache that would not go away, then the cat was at my window miaowing and wanting to be in at gawd knows what time, then she wanted to be in again at 8am… My alarm went off at 9am, but I simply ignored it… My bed was cosy and I was tired… Eventually got up at 11am, and ventured downstairs at about half past. Mum had very nicely cooked me breakfast, so I had that and watched a bit of This Morning!  Hahaha. I got reminded it was a running day so I had to go and run and make myself go…

The mud outside the house is ridiculous...

Dad said he’d go for a walk whilst I run and on the way back I can catch up with him. Whilst I was waiting, I thought I’d take a picture of the mud… Really interesting… Its driving me mad. Its driving all of us mad… All the snow melted, and it became ridiculously muddy, and then its rained and been worse… Fed up of it, year in year out… Always the same! Its like the “condensation” in the kitchen that streams down the walls from the roof… Okay, lets just not go there. some people are just plain lazy and yeah… Not going there!
So I went running after a bit of walking with my Dad. I got to where I usually get to in 15minutes, although I think I ran a bit more than I usually do today. I think I overdid it a little, problem is I can’t run any slower! The jogging I do on my running treks is the slowest I can go… But yeah, on the way back couldn’t see my Dad anywhere so I ran for a bit on the straight but had to walk up the hills. Finally spotted him and spent the rest of the journey trying to catch up, having to keep a relatively fast steady pace and not stopping. Usually I stop every 10 metres or so for a rest! Got home a bit quicker this time though, however exhausted and feeling sick. I felt dead…

No energy left... at all...

Yeah so that was me when I got back… I had been sitting in the porch for about 5 minutes before that, I didn’t even have the energy to take off my trainers! It took me about an hour or so to gather up the energy to go and get in the shower!! Maybe ran a little too much today, but oh well… it will do me good eventually. My Dad said the first month is always the hardest, I’m hoping he is right!! Going to start getting the 10k sorted maybe in March, see how I’m going running wise and consider that. I need some sort of motivation and target! Especially if I get sponsored as well, that would be more of a reason to make myself go! If I get quite good, might do the marathon instead… Depends, we’ll see…

Still no energy left...

There you go, another photo to laugh at… hehe I could have actually fallen asleep like that… I couldn’t even notice if it was uncomfy or not!
Well a relatively early night for me tonight. Skins is back on tv but I was never keen on the third series… I liked the first and second ones best… Might just catch up with it later when I feel like it. Big Bang Theory is on tonight as well, although whether I stay up for that will be debatable! Might do though, might fall asleep all the same beforehand!

Well thats me done, over an hour and a half later, I’ve finished typing all that up! Thank gawd! That should be enough of a reason to keep it up to date rather than do a weekly all-in-one thing! I’ll get back into the routine of writing everyday by next week hopefully!

Lots of love xxx

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with out fists held high
Never would have worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn’t want us to burn out
I didn’t come here to hurt you
Now I can’t stop

And I want you to know
It doesn’t matter
Where were take this road
Someone’s got to go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you’ll find another
Who doesn’t always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could fell the posion set in
Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

And I want you to know
It doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s got to go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
I’m already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that its wrong

I’m already gone
I’m already gone
Already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone…
Already gone, already gone, already gone…

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Monday 18th January
So the diet began… No or very little carbs for me, I’m absolutely starving. Starving, starving, starving, starving, starving… And I still don’t think that even begins to capture how hungry I am!!! However, I went shopping today with my parents, well it wasn’t really shopping, just more a trip into Inverness! I got a new pair of trainers, a late Christmas present! So thats me starting running very soon… I’ll have to make up some sort of exercise plan now really, and stick to it. The sticking to it part is the hardest! I can’t even contemplate any sort of exercise right now, I’m that hungry! I know I’m not exactly dying here and I definately have plenty of body fat to burn before I starve to death… but no carbs?! And definately no sugar! Goodbye to cakes and bread and rice and pasta and chocolate and lots of other things for a very long time! Oh well, its all worth it in the end I suppose… I’ve been sleeping most of the evening though, napping on the sofa! Not that its been a tiring day, I just feel I have no energy… Early night for me tonight I think!

My new trainers, little pink but who cares?!

Tuesday 19th January
Not much really happened today… Day 2 of the diet and I’m still starving hungry apart from when I’m eating of course! I am allowed to eat, its not as bad as I’m making out… Apparently all this should get better, I bloody well hope so! Ermmm not much happened today though really. Woke up, made myself breakfast, got ready, went to see some family friends with my parents and we sat and had a chat and a coffee and what not (well I didn’t have a coffee but still!), then we picked my brother up from school just on time! Quick dinner as it is Rugby training tonight.. So I went with my mother on taxi duty and to keep her company in the freezing cold car! Reading from the diet/healthy eating plan book! How fun! It didn’t really make me feel much better, I’m still missing all the carbs and cakes! Oh well… Not so much napping and going to bed ridiculously early tonight which is a little better though!

The evil diet book... Its all worth it though, I hope =)

Wednesday 20th January
I’m slowly beginning to feel a little less hungry now! Still starving when its coming up to meals, but its not so bad all the time! Apparently my face looks thinner which can’t be a bad thing! Everything else still seems the same though, its only day 3 though so I shouldn’t start complaining as yet! I got PS2 eyetoy Kinetic out this afternoon for some sort of beginning of exercise… And the minute it started, it reminded me why I stopped using the stupid thing! Its useless, the eyetoy is absolute rubbish… It doesn’t register half the things you are doing… and you’d need three football fields to play any of the cardio or combat games on or else you end up hitting tables, lights, sofas and tripping on the edge of the rug. Its all blurry too… And generally, the game is good training wise… but everything else is rubbish! I gave up trying after 20minutes of it, and waiting for it to load properly and wasted efforts. So I stuck to a bit of yoga and meditation, because you don’t really need the camera part for that! Meditation was good, although by the end of it, I was freezing cold having sat still for 15 minutes! I was relaxed, but unable to move! Running tomorrow and every other day I guess, no point in using that thing! How technology quickly moves on, eh? It was curry for dinner tonight which was lovely, and I was almost full for the first time since the start of this thing! Woohoo!

All gone, what was left of the curry... Yum!

Thursday 21st January
Got home and it was absolutely freezing… not hard given that the house is always colder than it is outside! Always… But nevermind, not going to go there, it only gets us frustrated! So I snuggled up in my duvet with the radiator on and watched Dear Diary: Richard E. Grant on BBC iPlayer, I’ve had it saved, ready for me to watch for absolutely ages! Just I never quite got around to watching it. But seeing as the internet was being a bit slow, I thought I’d watch that, and it was rather interesting! I went running today!! Yay! I finally went! Although it wasn’t exactly running, just half an hour of jogging and walking… I am in no way running up the hills as yet, it may kill me! Give me a few weeks or so! But yeah, its a start, now all I have to do is get up and go tomorrow as well… and then on Saturday too! And so on… I definately have to get into the habit! I want to run in the Baxters 10K in Inverness in October, so plenty of time to be training. I definately want to run that… It gives me a deadline date and also its another thing on my list… You can run for charities as well, so I might do that! I’ll see, I’ll have to get all that sorted out as well!
http://www.lochnessmarathon.com/  Theres the website if anyone wants to check it out!
Anyway, nothing much planned for this evening… Bit of tv, shower definately, and early night if I want to be up at a decent hour tomorrow… not that 11am isn’t decent… but a more decent one, like 8-9am! Hahahha I will possibly need a miracle for that!

Finally updating the blog!... Finally!

So theres the update! Hope it was worth the wait?! Sorry, I really need to keep on top of this a bit more, but it was just that seeing as I wasn’t doing much, the blogs seemed a bit boring and empty! Keeping up with my journal and the photos though! I’m slowly getting there with this too, although I don’t believe this was one of the things on the list!! I will write something sooner next time!

Lots of love xxx

I did make a bit of a mess in the process though today, I haven’t made ginger bread in such a long time… I usually just stick to making pies and baking cakes! So yeah… a bit messy! And I had to drive down to the shop twice (first time I’ve driven in a long long long time too!). First for flour because we ran out and the second time for golden syrup! A little adventure anyway!

What a mess... Oh well!

So theres the mess… And you get another photo as well today! I have to show you all what you’re all missing out on!

Yummmmm biscuits =D

Just sat in the kitchen waiting for dinner now! We’re having spinach and cheese cannelloni =) can’t wait! It will be my last bit of pasta for a long time! As of tomorrow there is no pasta, bread, potatoes or carbs of any type… well very little of them anyway! Its all worth it though!

Well off to eat din-dins!! I’m soooooo hungry!

Lots of love xxx